So I did it, assembled the bed frame and released the memory foam mattress from it's vacuum packing and watched it puff up,it's amazing how much they pack down to fit in the box. Then I put the new bed set on it. Perhaps I'll try to accept the loss of having her by my side and attempt to sleep on it . It's comfortable but I don't think I'll sleep much tonight on it.

I feel so emotionally drained right now.

Things to look forward to this week
1) home inspection on the new house in a couple days
2) My awesome supportive co workers have encouraged me to come out bowling with them after work .

They know what I'm going through as they saw me get served with divorce papers
This is like the 4th time they have encouraged me to do stuff with them and I'm finally going to not make a BS excuse not to go and just do it . Who knows I might even have a good time.