Wow..

I just read through all my old threads about my marriage. What sheer agony I have been through, due to his abuse and lies. I cringed, remembering back to how I felt over the years. It hurts. The hell he put me through.. all the broken and false promises of change.. all the gaslighting, all the fighting and near breakups. I am SO thankful I am out of that relationship!!!!!!

Since leaving him, I have taken care of much needed dental work. all my health appointments are now caught up, I've now lost 19 pounds as of this morning and I am back to the weight I was at when I met my husband, I am eating healthier foods, I am starting to exercise, I have made some new friends, and I am happy being on my own. I'm singing again in the car! Something I love to do and hadn't done all these years in my marriage.

I've come a long, long way, and I am proud of myself. I read an old thread where I was too scared to leave and scared to be alone again. Being alone is not as awful as I had imagined. I am doing just fine on my own, and in fact, I'm doing great! Granted, I am dating someone again, but we don't see each other that often and it's still very new. I was alone for 5 months before that.

I am really happy now, despite being unemployed, and I am SO very grateful I got out. It's a celebration... no more toxicity, no more inner and outer turmoil, no more knots in my stomach over him, no more eating disorder, and no more sickness. He literally made me sick. The abuse made me sick.

On a separate note, I wonder when/if I should tell him that I am going to report his lawyer for unethical practice??