I feel like collasping from eating nothing but a small pack of Twizzlers and a Nerds rope and bottle of Coke and an iced tea since yesterday dinner, if that. I didn't sleep good because I was fighting with the scale all night and reading a book called The Year I didn't Eat about a teenager who sounded a lot like me.

I'm trying to get up the physical energy to take a shower because I meet with you today and then I have my doctors appointment and I haven't showered in 3 days.