Last night was more relaxed and she talked a bit about the sincerity of her statements regarding why she is doing this .
I asked her if she could answer me honestly whether her main reason for this was to work on healing her issues or just getting me out of her life .

I told her I am sorry for struggling to believe her words but look at the situation and try to understand why I struggle.

She told me I have already told you this a few times but Yes my primary reason for needing to do this is to focus on me and fixing my issues. I am broken and I need to focus on Me and when you are around I often find myself thinking about you and not my healing.
I am so very sorry this is hurting you, it's hurting me as well I wish you could believe me but I feel I must do this for my mental health.
I get triggered by almost everything lately. It's not fair for you to have to be married to someone like me as broken as I am .

Once I have healed some and can process my triggers better . I would not be opposed to re exploring our relationship but we would need to take baby steps and get to know each other again provided you had not moved on .
You can either choose to believe my words or not but I would think by now you would know I'm not a malicious person looking to hurt you .

She seemed so sincere, I told her I choose to believe you . I told her I am in no hurry and don't plan to move on and will wait a while for her as I feel she is a special person...the type you meet once in a lifetime.
I told her I will use this time to focus on me and that I have always and always will love her . I told her I won't change my phone number or email and when she is ready, she can reach out to me .

Am I am fool for feeling this way and saying those words ? They come from my heart .

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