I know that your response wasn't to me. But you should know that I can say yes to this. 12 years ago almost to the day, I reached the limit of what I could take. I lived angry, scared, helpless, stuck, unhappy, suicidal and every other feeling that came from anger and hate for a few years even after my divorce was final. My ex would publicly laugh at me in the street when he was picking up our chiildren (i couldn't prove he was abusive in court) and taunted me with exposing private things I trusted him with because he was my husband and I was supposed to trust him. And that wasn't even the worst of the things he did.

So my question back to you is do you know how to recover from what you've been through? Do you know how to not feel angry and hateful and want revenge and vindication when he manipulates, gaslights and intimidates you? I do. I wish I hadn't waited to start figuring it out. I was content with being angry and feeling hopeless and helpless and I blamed my ex for all of it. He was after all the monster who damaged me to the point where I was broken. And the fear I lived with was constant. If I had started therapy at the same time I filed for divorce, I would have more years of happiness.

I'm not the woman who was abused anymore or the woman who struggled to survive it all. I worked on fixing in myself what led me to trust a monster to start, what led me to keep believing lies he told, what led me to be afraid, and a hundred other things that I could change so I would never have to live that way again. I took control and my life became mine to live. I'm indifferent to my ex. I'm immune from him because I became the person he couldn't intimidate, manipulate or gaslight. It frustrates him that I'm not his victim anymore.

You deserve to live without anger and hate. You deserve to be safe and feel secure. You deserve happiness. You deserve the joy I feel every day and the peace I feel every night. I hope you find it because I know how much you need it.