Tough session last night with the therapist . Made some connections about her actions/statements and her illness and how it has changed our interactions over the last year.
I believe she may be stricken with DID on top of the PTSD as she had frequently talkd to me about her injured child persona which has a name that is not hers . A lot of this I didn't pay much attention to but when I look back at it, I realize she talked about her often and told me recently that her child persona is too strong and she can't silence her .

If she indeed has DID then there is no way every other week therapy will help her with that, especially on top of the trauma PTSD . It's awful and I feel terrible about her struggles.

My therapist told me a phrase to recite when when I'm struggling to cope with this .

"My relationship has changed because she can no longer love me the way I need to be loved anymore "

He says it's the key to learning to move on and not dwell in what ifs.

We shall see sometimes it helps sometimes not .

Positive for the day ....going out with friends bowling .