Sounds like you're seeing things you didn't really recognize before. That's a lot to wrap your head around.

Perhaps in time, her treatment will change and she will find her way to where she needs to be.

In the meantime, hopefully you can find some meaningful ways to care for yourself.

That's a good mantra the therapist gave you. Mine is "I have to take the road that's in front of me." Guess that sort of avoids the what-ifs as well.

Nice that you will go bowling. Hope you are able to have some fun. Are you a good bowler?