I realized something pretty important... based on my husband's moods, my own mood and behavior would also change. So, if he was irritable and taking his mood out on me, I would get angry and lash back out at him. Whenever he was nice to me, I would soften and warm back up to him. Then the cycle would continue, on and on and on and on, going around in circles. There was never any stability .. so up and down. A total roller coaster.

These last few weeks of having to deal with him have reminded me of what it's like to be on that roller coaster, but constantly. Thank goodness I am out of that now.