Actually, I really loved both of the explanations. Grace yours was so beautifully written..I am someone who is a visual thinker so the canvas and paints made such an impression and prefect sense to me.....and I appreciated the "The Diathesis-Stress Model" it was clear and clinical, something i also need. I guess I feel guilty that not only do I have this illness (?), but my youngest daughter as well.... I tried so hard to be a good parent...so you see... I was guilty twice...if I would have known that whatever I have could be hereditary I would have NEVER had children...