I have a pdoc appointment today. Theres no need for him to do anything. My meds are fine. My physical issues are tough. I started having bleeding and it freaked me out, confused me, made me feel dysphoric. My mom wasn't home so I texted her and asked how to send a message to my endocronolgist through the portal. She told me how. I didn't know if he was the right doctor but I figured he'd understand about the dysphoria part. Anyways he got back this morning and was super nice and he said becauase of the stomach pain I've been having lately and now the post hystrectomy bleeding, he urgently wants me to see my gynecolgist. And now I'm freaking out. Like what is going on with me, what tests will they do, plus I am a ****ing man with a full beard going to a gynecolgists. I was in severe stomach pain last night for some reason. I only had a couple sips of a caffeine free Coke and a grape Uncrustable. I was in so much pain I almost had to get my mom. But I took some tylenol and my other stomach med and I ate some saltine crackers and my stomach calmed down and I fell back asleep until 6:15. I took a valium after reading the message from my endocronolgist so I feel decent right now but still not very hungry and I have this BOGO chipotle coupon my moms been bugging me about for awhile thats going to expire in a few days.