I'm bringing this up cause I know from experience that getting out of a relationship (late 2011) massively triggered mental illness in me, to the point I literally dare not get into another relationship - ever

Problem was, early 2012 I lost literally everything after that relationship, when I moved back in with family and wasn't even able to keep my boy cat Dylan

No employer would even think about taking me on, so it became a catch 22 situation

The more desperate I got for something to go my way - just the once - the more nobody wanted to know

even the professionals turned their backs and called me a time waster

Not a single person was willing to give me a "yes"



and i'm a bad person and a bad member and should use a method to make sure i die if i lose everything again cause so many people treated me like i should of back in 2012

idk if this post is even allowed, not sure where the line is with the no suicide posts thing, dont understand it cause willowtigger stupid

again