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Old Apr 27, 2023, 01:53 PM
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Originally Posted by Desoxyn View Post
The autist psychonaut speed friend I have, we talk about meds and such, and experiment manically with chemicals - But psychiatric meds are always better - They're the most important for stability. They can numb emotions, but not very much.

I got her off of a speed binge.. Imagine that? - I said (With the bad ADHD), "Ritalin prescription is better", and she's working on that.. Deserves proper help for autism.

If I didn't have background of talking here, being a psychiatric patient, very supportive family etc, I'd be gone.. roaming the streets as "God mad".

No tripping or LSD!! weed etc.. lol.. Nooooo. I don't even do acid.. Too much of a schizy psychedelic, dissociation. I microdose 1/10th - But don't feel the need for psychedelics anymore.

And with the hypersexual mania, I don't judge. I used to be extremely hypersexual (Maybe I was manic, when I think back - But it was cuz of Abilify). It was a years long chemical binge, in the basement.. Eventually, I disconnected from everyone and said "This is stupid". Then I was diagnosed with schiz. I was also on 80mg of Prozac, did manic things in the psych ward - Hung around drug dealers, sociopaths, etc.. No fear. It was a fun experience... But it's over now..

But people must respect the need for meds, with love, etc... There's a point with trippers, where ego is increased - And there needs to be time for a more humble, calm and careful approach, especially with what is said to other people.

You'll beeee fine. I still get reckless.. People always will be. As SP said, "Ride the manic wave", and take it a little more seriously idk
Thank you desoxyn, I appreciate your insight I was honestly seriously considering trying LSD and starting to smoke weed again. But that probably would be a bad idea for me. Especially since I dissociate too. And the bad experience with DXM made me terrified to ever touch anything again. Which I didn't. But these past couple weeks I've been willing to try anything. I obviously can't and don't have the money for that stuff but I was even considering getting high on my klonopin which I have never used for that purpose before. Idk it's like all inhibitions disappeared for a few weeks

I guess the main good thing that came from all this reckless crap was that I was highly motivated and overconfident and put in 25 job applications during it. I have an interview tomorrow.
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