My pdoc session went very good. The first thing I told him was that I had applied to 2 jobs. We talked about that for a couple minutes. Then he said "how is your sleep bud?" I knew I looked like crap and I was in my moms bed with 2 throw blankets on and I was exhausted. I said I had been going through a lot of physical stuff. I explained the GI stuff and the stomach meds that can make me tired and then I talked about the bleeding and needing to see the gynecologist. He was really understanding and knew my dysphroia was kicking up real bad. He had a super concerned look on his face while talking to me but he knew (and I knew too) there was nothing that needed to be done with my pysch meds and they are working fine. He said to come back in 3 months but to call if I need anything. I bet theres like a 2 year waiting list to see this guy.

I also emailed my therapist. She was incredibly supportive and validated my feelings as well and said I had every right to feel this way. She said she was here for me and I can email her whenever and to try grounding and to remember that its ok to feel this way and try anything that may help even a little.

So my appointment with the gynecologist is on May 5th. I spent the day in bed totally exhausted but I do think I may have been down in the dumps a bit. I did get my weekly shot too which can drain me of energy. I went to take a shower half an hour ago and found both my cats on my bed. I rarely find any of them on my bed let alone both of them at the same time. It creeps me out because I know I've heard people talk about cats smelling stuff.

I do feel better after taking a shower though.