Can't catch a break. Hoping for good news next week or we're ****ed. I have to remain under control. I hope this doesn't bring on an episode. I'm so scared. Like I did something wrong when I didn't. I wish things were easier. H says I'm worried prematurely. I don't deal with uncertainty well. Sorry so cryptic but any good thoughts please. It's nothing life threatening just negatively life changing. With a small possibility it'll be positively be life changing.