I wanted to get a grilled cheese sandwhich today. I got 3 large flavored Diet Cokes instead. Thats disordered behavior for sure. I'm tired from eating a lot of Uncrustables lately but they don't hurt my stomach. I went through my food rack I use as a pantry and really cleaned it up. I wonder if I hoard food.

I feel like I ate a ton but its just from the Diet Coke and 2 rice cakes and the 50oz of water I've had to drink. I haven't eaten much since Thursday maybe.

I keep sleeping through dinner and it pisses my mom off. I did it like 3 times recently. She trys 3 times to wake me up but I am so hard to wake up.

I suddenly feel like I'm going to have a panic attack after eating some plain boiled chicken. Idk why, but this happened after I ate a can of tuna the other week. Its just some weird reaction to meat I've had all of a sudden. I think I can do chicken strips ok. Not sure what else I've had with meat in it recently besides Hot Pockets. This girl I knew in treatment had an eating disorder and had issues with meat.

I just looked at my food log and I had some grilled nuggets on Monday which caused a freak out and some Sirloin steak last Sunday which caused an arguement with my mom over things.