You say you don’t like group socializing, but you keep putting yourself in social group situations.

You have a good friend. Go with that. Enjoy each others’ company. Plan outings for the two of you. It may be that along the line you may encounter an activity that you enjoy AND it involves a few more people and perhaps eventually more friendships might evolve. But your hostility towards other people seems pretty high right now (at least as you communicate it here), and it is possible that you may be giving off a vibe when you are in groups that you don’t like them (and you may not even realize it). It happens. It’s kind of natural I think when we’re predicting things won’t go well.

I don’t have a lot of close friends. I have always just had a few. I’m okay with that. I’ve learned to socialize in the context of a few activities that I enjoy, and I have built some lovely friendships with people in those activities, but they are limited to those activities (which is completely fine).

I think there is this perception that everyone has lots of friends, but the reality that I have seen is that most people have a very small number of truly close friends (often just one or two) and the larger group of people most socialize with is largely limited to certain activities (in other words, they aren’t really close friends, but more like activity-centered friends).

So I have my church choir friends. I have my work friends. I have my chorus friends. But none of them are particularly besties. In fact, I would say that right now my besties happen to be my sister and my son. They are the ones I truly talk to about very important and personal things. I’m good with that at the moment.

Your good friend sounds like a truly great person, and that is quite special.