I'm so sorry. I wish I had something helpful to say. I feel that the ''healthcare system'' for mental ''health'' in some areas leaves a lot to be desired. Have you tried reading any books, I've found Pete Walker's book - Complex PTSD - from surviving to thriving to be helpful. Maybe pick it up and dip into it, a bit at a time. Thinking of you and sending love. That term in the title, it reminds me of that ugly term - ''beyond help''..... In my vast experience I have NOT encountered even ONE person who ''should'' be slammed with anything ugly like that. Maybe.... some of those who are supposed to ''help'' are .... ''Beyond help''

I truly hope you find something that helps. People here do care

Let me/us know if you try the book. I definitely recommend it.