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there at times......like I could run to the bathroom and vomit......but I don't.....cause I have to hold it all together and "pretend" I am so strong.

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OMG... during one session I was sitting on the ugly couch, thought everything was going OK. I could feel my heart racing, she was telling me something about something Oprah said about childhood abuse and guilt. I don't even know what my T was actually saying, $#@@$?? It wasn't until I stood up to leave that I almost had to sit back down because I got so dizzy. I got out the my car and started dry-heaving in the parking lot. I did manage to mention the next session that I was feeling pretty ill all of the sudden at the end of the session. She asked me "What do you think that was all about?" I said "I don't know, just sick I guess, maybe stress." Then we moved on to another topic. I think my problem is that I will quickly mention my anxiety but then immediately move on. I think it is an avoidance kind of thing. I'll mention it so I can tell myself later, "hey I'm being open, telling her everything" But I'm not REALLY wanting to acknowledge how crippling it really is sometimes and how much it really bothers me that I can't say what I want to say.