pissed me off in chat? que? not following you... but whatever... i think maybe you are referring to a day when some of us were comparing calories.. not competing.. there really is a difference. The biggest one being interpretation by someone who does not live this.

i'm not really sure why you are personalizing this... i was responding to the post above mine in this thread... so...um.. not going to go there. i've already got another thread about this very topic.. and so i thought it was relevant...

um.. no one asked anyone to support a bulimic throwing up, etc... i said don't judge. Don't respond with "don't do this or that" not because the person should be doing the particular behaviour, but because they aren't just making a *simple* choice. It's very deeply complicated.... and believe me when i say that pretty much every bulimic i know wishes to god they could just stop. i don't wake up each day and think "hey, i know.. i can ruin my life... cool." i wake up thinking that i have to try harder... i need to get control of this.. i need to DO something... and then someone tells me to just "stop."

i didn't say you told me that.. honestly, i talk to a lot of people online.. i dont recall talking to you specifically about it. im asking for people to think about this in the same way they would any other sort of illness, why aren't we treated the same? i mean.. it's easy to wave a difficult behaviour in our face as justification... but it doesn't help me, it doesn't help anyone. i already know that throwing up is bad for me. i already know i need more calories. i already know i am causing my body damage. i already know i need to stop.

what i dont think you're hearing me say... and this is a limitation of just reading what i am writing instead of actually hearing me say it.. is that pretty much all of us, even the very young, we all understand on a deep level that what we are doing is wrong somehow... why do you think that even the youngest do it secretively? We know. If it hurts you, like you say, then speak in terms of compassion... doing so isn't "supporting" the behaviour.

i know the SI people suffer this way too. Like it's ok.. it's not ok. Being ashamed to talk about these behaviours only makes it all worse. "i feel disgusting" is a common thing we say to ourselves... or admit to each other.

maybe i am expecting too much... to be treated equally?

AAAAA... this post isn't about you.. it isn't about anyone and its about everyone. i'm just asking for understanding and compassion in chat.