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50guy said:
Wow, that's a lot to have going on. How are you holding up?

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thanks all (((((((50guy, bbear (always), gimmeice)))))))))

i mean... on one hand - it is not directly related to me (thanks be given for that!) and on the other, they are my friends and I am tied to their lives. I think on the suicide one, where I have known the woman for.... 19 years and my friend was basically always adopted by my family... you know - it is weird and i am shocked and need to "be there" for my friend (in a different State)... and yet she and I are both in some sort of odd reality denial thing. we know it happened, and yet... can't quite comprehend it.

meanwhile, I am dealing with depression, had a full blown anxiety attack this morning before i heard the news (she attempted the suicide this morning) and just... you know - to help my friend i can shelf my own problems and help them... and then when they go, here is all my usual crap again.

pardon me - just getting all this out of my head is helpful.
And back to work tomorrow.
thanks for letting me spew my thoughts in here.
kiya