Hello friends, hope this is the most appropriate section for this topic.

I am scared and worry that when I become alone and homeless (homeless more-or-less willingly, for the freedom aspect mostly) my mind and therein my functioning will decline, and I will just become like gloopy and non, or at least less functioning and capable of just simply thinking, or at LEAST possibly just back to being in a 'shell', maybe?

Like, right now I feel like I'm not really afraid of much, or specifically the world and people, and like I could potentially do... more or less, within reason and realistically of course, anything I truly wanted to set my mind to, and like I can just at the very least be a part of society and function etc.

Like, maybe I fear just becoming a 'recluse' again, with either depression and/or anxiety controlling and highly-influencing me at a deep, inside core level, and if not just due to other things/people, then at the very least because of my own decline in confidence, self-image, willpower, belief in myself and my capabilities etc. etc.



Like, right now my outlook and aura and everything on my life is optimistic and good - and basically just happy and lucky to be alive, and if it's meant to be it's meant to be and will happen, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, the future is uncertain and anything could happen in the blink of an eye so tomorrow and every day after could be the best day of my life, etc. etc.

So I basically am happy, and have a happy outlook and attitude and feeling and everything about my life, and living, but I'm just scared or don't want any of that to change and go back to the Hellish darkness I was in before, due to whatever it could be, but specifically I think if my mind just deteriorates and like I said becomes gloopy with no day-to-day life or meaning and I can't even think to be able to function.