So my therapist encouraged me to do more ECT. She asked me point blank if I could go on like this for the next 4-6 weeks while I wait for the lexapro to take effect and I said absolutely not, 100% no. I’m this close to starting to call out of work. If I go on like this I WILL end up IP. I hate IP. I mean the facilities I go to are nice (three of them anyway) but just the whole experience sucks.

So tomorrow I’m going to call the ECT center and see what they say. The scheduling woman gave me her card (which I lost so I have to call the main number) and told me if I ever feel like I’m slipping to give her a call and they’ll get me in. So as much as I hate it and don’t want to, it really seems like the only option. It’s worked many times in the past. And I don’t have to be written out of work completely, just on treatment days.

I’ll call tomorrow. Right now I’ve got an awful headache so I am going to return to my darkened room and lay with an ice pack on my head for awhile.