We were planning on moving in together this summer and eventually getting married. He wants another child and before all of this I had agreed to work towards this. He has been really supportive of my schooling, helps me out as he can with it, tells me how smart I am and that he always knew I would do really well. If I talk about leaving he freaks out and cries and says if he losses me he would lose the best thing that ever happened to him. I just can't understand how he could do what he did? How he could lie and manipulate (because I felt something was off for quite awhile and questioned him several times.) His therapist is great, I have attended one session and I am welcome to attend more if I want to. He had a pretty bad porn addiction to add to the mix. According to his therapist he is to stay away from all of it for quite awhile until he has had enough treatment. Recently, I found a cd of backup files from his computer with loads of porn on it. How do I take all into account? How do I allow for bumps in the road and healing/growing but also learn to trust/feel safe again?