Hi Jesyka I think divine has given really good practical advice. I just wanted to add that from what you’ve written to me before when we talked about possible autism and added to what you’ve written here about your learning difficulties I really feel it might be helpful to be assessed.

There were a lot of people, particularly women, who flew under the radar for autism diagnosis from our generation. Many of them thought they were stupid too, but they just learned differently- that wasn’t recognised back then.

You need support imo, which you don’t appear to be getting. Sadly I wouldn’t count on your husband, he doesn’t sound like he is at all supportive. If you do get assessed as having a need or disability you may be able to access more support, not just payments but support in getting into work.