Today was rough. I was so wired that I was super irritable and restless. The students drove me nuts, just their voices were making me mad. The one nonverbal boy got so mad that the iPad wasn’t working that he screamed at the top of his lungs for a half hour straight AND hit me in the face. He gets aggressive when he doesn’t get what he wants and he’s HUGE. He’s only seven but only maybe a head shorter than me and a good 100lbs. At least. Normally I don’t mind but I was just so irritable that I kind of yelled at him. That’s never helpful, the key to calming an aggressive student is to become calmer yourself to counteract. At least that’s what I’ve found.

I faked a dr appt and left 45 minutes early.

I’ve been doing squats, lunges, and lifting weights. I just can’t keep still. The weather was cold and rainy but the sun came out for a little while when RS got home so we went for a walk. I walked too fast for him lol. It calmed me down a bit but I still can’t stop fidgeting. But at least I don’t have music looping through my head and my eyes don’t feel like they’re darting all over the place yet. And I’m not paranoid or hearing music. I think as long as I can keep sleeping this won’t get too bad.

Just the irritability! It’s maddening!