Jesyka,

Are you sure you think that she (or some other woman) is jealous of you or, perhaps, you secretly wish she were jealous of you? You have recently shared horrific information about your husband. And yet you are financially dependent on him and cannot separate from him. It is a very difficult situation to be in. I wonder if you are trying to sugarcoat your reality for yourself by picturing yourself an object of another's woman's jealousy, especially, as on this thread, jealousy on account of your having a husband who "takes care of you". You just shared with us that your husband does not take care of you in one of major ways spouses take care of each other: he tries to limit your access to basic healthcare by withholding money. He also would not tell you how much the two of you owe to the IRS. He yelled at you when in Spain you spent a little money on yourself. What is there to be jealous of? It is not a glamorous life at all.