I've been doing so much better. Not all better but improving and even starting to enjoy things. Yesterday I even managed to drive to the city to see my therapist and then did some errands when I got home.

But I really messed up my clozapine. I thought that I was due for labs this week and then would have plenty of time for them to be approved and the refill done. Turns out that I was wrong and I have 4 pills to cover 2 days which should be 6 pills. I also only took 2 yesterday. I'm a week laste on labs.


I have never done this before. I've had messes with the pharmacy (which I'm staying on top of this time; maybe I'll get my refill tomorrow if I am assertive) but generally my pdoc's office sends the labs twice before the pharmacy gets it. And last time the hospital didn't send the results to the pdoc until she called and asked for them. So I'm worried about that as well; I can hardly expect people to drop what they are doing to run around to handle this when it's my mistake.

Really hoping this doesn't cause my mood to collapse....Scared. And frustrated with myself. I know I forgot because I've not been well but I try so hard to stay on top of this.