It's happened again- twice. And within 2 weeks of each other. The 1st was with my t. I felt really 'odd' before I even got there; really tired and...it's hard to explain... shaky, not 'in touch' with anything,... And then during our session I was doing/saying stuff that I don't normally say or do. I was responding differently to t, and talking about stuff in a 'different' way (I am normally an introvert/lack eye contact/hold all my emotions inside me; instead I made heaps of eye contact, and was behaving in a much more extrovert way). I was aware of it but couldn't do anything to stop it. And I while I was aware of this stuff, I wasn't really aware of what we were talking about (I had to ask her today to go over what we did last time). And then at my friend's house on Sunday it was like this again- I became very extroverted, saying and doing stuff I don't normally do. And again I was very sleepy and shaky and 'not in touch'.
Now I am just feeling even more alone and scared right now.
And really, really confused.