I've been bottling this up too long. Is it possible to have so many diagnoses? I know I'm messed up and was severely tortured and traumatized as an infant and bullied my entire childhood.

I must say that all of my psychologists struck me as very experienced and good. First psychologist diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder. She sent me to a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder, depression, and PTSD. After about a year I nearly jumped off a bridge because of her and so I was force to find another therapist. I found another good psychologist who after a year diagnosed me with: Primary diagnosis is schizoaffective Disorder, a provisional diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder and Other Specified Personality Disorder with Borderline, Schizotypal, and Avoidant Features. She sent me to a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with BPD, depression, and general anxiety disorder. She also sent me to a very experienced psychologist who has experience with DID. He diagnosed me with DID.

Could someone please tell me what am I supposed to do with all of those diagnoses. I feel that all of them can't be correct. It makes me feel like a freak people see in fiction movies. I always run away from everything but I'm trying so hard not to run away this time and just face things hoping life gets eventually gets better.

Any help is appreciated!