E: Where are you? I know you will be going away for 2 weeks starting Monday (and how will I get through that?), but I’ve written 2 emails, desperate for help. Are you busy packing for your trip? Probably. I would have done anything to hear back, or talk to you when I am in severe distress. I had to call the crisis line last night. It took 45 minutes talking until I was calm and more regulated.

Please don’t leave me. I can’t lose you too.

T: This pain is the worst I’ve ever been in. This is how a secure attachment feels when someone leaves me? You are the first person I really felt safe with. Now I feel abandoned. I know that isn’t the situation, but I still feel that way.

How will I get through this massive grief?