selflessness.....

this one is important ive learned over time... i felt foolish doing for others for the longest time... felt like i was doing for them, but getting nothing back.. i tried to teach myself the lessons of my grandmothers' who often put me before them... and others who've done so in my life... i always admired their ability to do that....

i experienced an ego collapse at the age of 15 and had to rebuild my personality.. there is hardly any other way to describe it... a confusing experience that brought a dark depression...

i copied what my grandmothers did cause they said it was the right thing... and they were smart people in my view...

it was such a confusing lesson for me and took a very long time to relearn... there are several reasons i came to realize why selflessness matters...

i spose the greatest reason i can give appears selfish in its own way... i hope that isnt wrong...

but one day i got to thinking... i happened to be hungry and poor at the time, eating in shelters and doing part time work, just getting by, barely....

i appreciated so much the helpfulness of strangers.. i had the ability to rise from my homeless condition, but there is a weird part of me... i wanted to experience it, and be with the homeless.. feel it..... i believed they had a lesson for me.....

i didnt ask for handouts from others... giving my spare change away even as i was broke and hungry myself.. i had seen others do the same.....

the men and women that i stayed with were not well..... i was questioning my own wellness at that point in time also..... i felt i needed to learn something there tho....

i witnessed the sickest of the sick helping one another when others with busy lives and realities of their were elsewhere occupied.... it was a saintly thing to witness.....

men who called each other brother.... men who kept virtues despite thier miserable conditions..

i've always admired that spirit....

it exists here at PC.. the selfless giving of others and the compassion that accompanies it..... all to my personal benefit...

i hope others will continue to add.. i promise to not be so wordy on each....