I thought of something specific that happened that I have become worried about in retrospect. I was helping a couple of friends move a couple of weeks ago and I found a hair tie on the floor. I was being silly and jokey with one of them and snuck up behind her and shot it at her. Then I (very sarcastically) denied it. Looking back I feel bad about that. I saw it as joking, of course I did it and of course everyone knows I did, but I can see how that could be interpreted as manipulation, or is it even a sign of a manipulative side that I have hidden even from myself?