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Originally Posted by Desoxyn
Dear math mind,
I know about these things... ethanol for example...
I used to wonder why my mom said that I can only have "1-2 drinks" - I thought "I can't get drunk on that little?" - But most people (Especially older), have more experience/mindfulness - Or are connected with some parts of their daily perceptions.. All people are like a pattern, always changing (But can be stuck in some way - They can enjoy their pattern, or are always miserable)..
But everything is always never the same (It seems like it's the same, but changes - un notice ably, by a 1% decrease or increase etc.. - And that happens for trillions of connections from 100 billion neurons in relation to each other - every second, every hour, every day..)..
I became more sensitive - So sensitive, that even 1 drink made me feel so strange (Dissociation, panic attack) - Just too much nonsense and neuroplasticity.. I had to build a new "self".
In 2022, I drank one double shot of rum, once every afternoon... I liked the dopamine hit.. Like using alcohol as crack. But once a day was enough... It was when I developed more of an ego again, had hope... But I thought of this as a hopeless world - So during the pandemic, many people did this... So many opioid overdoses etc.. And it will get worse.
Take care of the "self", the mind. Your liver I'm sure is okay - People usually don't go "I can't go to work today because my liver isn't excreting proper enzymes or filtering things"..
A challenge is good... But remember that alcoholism is a rare thing (Like drinking massive amounts), usually cuz of trauma. You went through a lot with the medical scares - So there's stress (But not severe Post Traumatic Stress! I think..). People drink 15 beers a day, throw up etc. I write this all, why? Because I feel that just talking, and that you've read this far - I may have wasted your time.. But intention is good, we care... Much love though =]
Meditation would be very helpful - I recommend it for you (And for myself!)..
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I honestly think (100% believe) that meditation has helped me give up alcohol. Not trying to be dogmatic about it or anything.
Obviously everyone's personal circumstances are different.
But the way it was presented to me (meditation, that is), was at a perfect time in my life when I needed it (I was abusing drugs, etc.)
And gradually, my mind began to stabilize, and that was extremely helpful.
Because if I hadn't given up alcohol (and again, I know everyone's personal circumstances are different), I would probably be a lot more depressive and moody.
Anyway, just a plug for meditation. I would say it's not for everyone but I don't think that's true. I think anyone could benefit from it. I think mindfulness is free. It helps immensely to have a good app/teacher/book though.