Only a little. I do expect some good years ahead, though, unless I happen to get very sick, physically. With all of the loss I've experienced I've learned to accept its inevitability and try to make the best of my life beyond it. I even try to pre-plan what a life might be if I lose my husband before passing myself. That would be the WORST loss, even above what I experienced losing my mother. However, I could/should go on, but it would be in a place and manner that I would choose 100%.

Approximately how many full blown panic attacks have you experienced these past years?