Hi Kim!

Thanks so much for replying. My mind is pretty open to what will happen if I choose to pursue this memory. I have lived with the uncertainty of it for oh lets see now, for about 40 years LOL. I don't think I will be upset if nothing comes from exploring the situation. And I really don't have a gnawing feeling that it's something I must figure out. But I am quite curious about it and would like to venture into seeing how it has affected who I am all these years. I get this feeling that this one experience shaped me in more ways than I'm aware of.

I have a wonderful therapist. I have the utmost trust in her to lead me and support me in a positive and constructive way. I do understand that in delving into this that the truth will only be my truth, my memories and that she has no access to that part of me I know she will be right there for me if I need her to be when and if questions or problems arise from delving into this situation. And you may be dead on that it's possible I won't have any more memories than what I have now and she will help me to work through accepting the uncertainty of it all. If that uncertainty does indeed bother me further. Like I said, to me, it's not something that has to happen, I'm just hoping it will I believe that I am in a good place in my life right now. I have a lot of understanding of who I am, why I am and what I want to be. I think I will be able to handle whatever comes from this exploration in a healthy way. How's that for positive thinking??

Thanks again Kim!


sabby