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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
Hello and welcome to MSF!
It’s very understandable for you to look back on this, try to make sense of it and grieve it.
I got a sense from what you wrote, that your friend felt jealousy about your new relationship. Maybe they felt sad for themselves having to cope with their caring for their parent situation, or grief. Then when you were happy, they felt envious. Plus it was not only a platonic friendship, there was some romantic history.
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Thank you! and thanks for your time in responding. I have wondered that myself sometimes. It was definitely a layered friendship. One reasons it never worked out like that is because she is asexual and i'm not. I always expressed to her that it didn't matter to me and it wasnt a deal breaker for me. But I recall her expressing alot that she just couldnt get herself to date a sexual person cause she would feel like she's taking something from them. I always wondered if those feelings lasted. I feel like there's a lot of unanswered questions that may always remain that way.