Yes, I hope OP comes back as well. And there doesn't seem to be a lack of desire at all, as OP clearly states: "seeking solutions".

(FWIW, I've been without the driving force of desire myself and the medication really helped in my case!)

Not sure which avenue would be most helpful, but these are a few ideas that might help OP's quest:



Book: "On Shame and the Search for Identity" by Helen Merrell Lynd (try abebooks(dot)com or ebay, if not amazon)

Book: "Hero with a Thousand Faces" by Joseph Campbell

Research Carl Jung and the Shadow.

Types of therapy which might be helpful:
- Drama Therapy
- Gestalt Therapy
- EMDR
- EFT/tapping

I think OP connecting with art and literature is especially important, as is philosophy. And check out the culture of your native language as well, as well as travelling if it is safe to do so. Or checking out other internet forums in your native language.


I don't know whether you are in a major centre, but there is the New Acropolis for which more info can be found here: HOME

Also, this is a very interesting article: Existential Depression in Gifted Children - Sofo Archon


Hope to hear how you're getting along, OP.

Best wishes...