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Originally Posted by stahrgeyzer
The guy at the corner with a big STOP sign for school children was there so I cut my walk short. He makes a big commotion of stopping cars and having me cross so it makes me nervous. It's like he thinks I'm the president of the United States. And I can see some people in there cars just giving me the look as they wait extra long time. I'm surprised he doesn't have an air horn as well.
Am I crazy? I feel so different like someone from another planet that it makes me feel like a freak. I've always talked to inanimate objects, especially the past 3 or so years, and I treat them so nicely. Especially my plant, Sally & Fern Fern, and also my sweater and jacket and shoulder towel. They talk to me and say nice things. The bad voices come from evil spirits or something. Yeah yeah I know that talking part is most likely just in my head but it makes me feel good and not so alone so I think my brain is just trying to help me.
Is that called Panpsychis? I haven't studied it but just googled it.
Maybe I just need to go back to therapy and psychiatrist and take meds or better yet be thrown in a psych ward. I took meds but they made me feel like I'm always under water in jail. But I'm still gonna talk to my friends.
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I'm a panentheist.
1. Panpsychism emphasizes the inseparability of the physical and mental aspects of reality, while panentheism seeks a higher reconciliation of atheistic pantheism and ontological dualism.
2. Panentheism is a subset of pantheism, and most pantheists who are philosophically or theologically inclined tend to be panentheists.
3. Panentheism seeks to reconcile an atheistic pantheism with the ontological dualism of necessarily existing, eternal creator and contingent, finite creation.
4. Some panpsychists equate God with the cosmos, and hence are pantheists.
5. Panentheism is a subset of pantheism, and most pantheists who are philosophically or theologically inclined tend to be panentheists.
All of these are interesting things, but antipsychotics are important (To help with disturbance, like the paranoia of cars etc - I used to be so fearful of cars letting me cross the road - I still kind of am.. I hate especially when people yell at me from their cars, saying "Use the crosswalk" and ****...).
Cars seem to have their own consciousness to me.. Cute and scary/alien/metallic/unnatural. They make me scared, passing by - Like I could be abducted or have my soul stolen by the headlights.
But these are just thoughts - In DPDR, they bother me - But not anymore. Olanzepine helped.
It just depends on the intensity that you can handle the thoughts/feelings (Like a dial from 1-10). Some days are good, others aren't as good.