I know what I wrote and I felt it to my core; I know what my intuition is saying to me. I hear it, I do. I don't know if it's my innate stubbornness, or fear of how hard it will be, or just plain fear of the unknown. And that last question you asked me - holy crap on a cracker that was a tough one. I am pretty sure that the answer is yes, I DO think that. And y'know what, because I think that, probably means that they will outlive me and it won't ever happen.

This all hurts so much.