Today was a bad day and so was yesterday with some weirdness. I'm feeling discouraged and depressed. I don't think things will ever get better. It's been a long time that things haven't been great but some days are worse than others.

As for Rose, it's so much of how it is with my family. I haven't seen them in a long time and I'm in no hurry to get together. But I do reach out at times; and then it feels like I got eggs in my face for my effort.