Hi. I'm having a hard time collecting my thoughts. Today is only my 2nd doctor's appt and I was really looking forward to it and now I can't go! Boyfriend's car is in the shop, my only friend in town has other things to do, and I just can't ride the bus. I don't know how! I'm such a loser. I'm totally useless. I talked to a nurse at the Dr's office and I have no idea what's going on. I can't even think straight. Ugh. Things were going pretty well, and then I get set back again and I just fall apart. Why can't I just deal with %#@&#!. Why can't I just ride the bus or learn to drive a car like everyone else. Why do things have to be so hard.