I'm experiencing severe sleep irregularity. I'm a guest in someone else's home. It's embarrassing.

In my own home, I manage to get enough sleep, even though it's broken up. Here, I am not getting enough hours of sleep. I'm tired and yawning a lot during times when I need to be sociable. This trip/visit has not gone well. I'ld been looking forward to this trip for three years. It got postponed by COVID, then by me having serious health problems that required I stay put for treatment.

It will be a few years before I can afford to visit here again. This was supposed to be a joyous reunion with my family - a strengthening of the bonds of love. Instead, I'll go back feeling more estranged.