I ruined my life forever. I quit drinking for the past few years but cannot quit smoking no matter what. I am 50, very fat, unhealthy, and so not enjoy a single day.

I hate smoking. It does not even feel good but I just cannot stop. I do not want to take medication or use nicotine replacement.

My life feels empty, destroyed, boring, and meaningless.

I feel like it is too late for everything. 😭