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Old May 24, 2023, 07:17 AM
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I feel like a failure sometimes because at times I feel like my mental health hasn’t improved all that much even though I’ve managed to stay out of the hospital since July 2017. especially when I dissociate and during that am not capable of anything. I also feel like I should have a job by now and be living independently 100%. But I’m still in supportive housing, have no job and have a very very very difficult time dealing with any kind of stress due to the trauma and BPD portion of my diagnoses.

I turn 29 the first week of June. I feel like I haven’t accomplished much in my 29 years aside from volunteering.

I’m also extremely ashamed of the bpd part of my diagnosis because there is so much stigma and sometimes I feel that everyone hates dealing with me

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Blue_Bird, you're not alone in that. I feel like a failure a lot of the time as well. It is not easy to have good self-esteem, whatever that means.

What I find especially difficult is comparing myself to other people who maybe have it easier than me.

For example, last night I went on a date, and all I could really think about is that it wasn't going to work out with this person in particular. I still had a good time, but it always sucks knowing I don't have the resources to be in a loving relationship with someone. I don't know, that's just my personal situation.

But I understand what you're saying. It's hard.
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Thanks for this!
Blue_Bird