Blue_Bird, you're not alone in that. I feel like a failure a lot of the time as well. It is not easy to have good self-esteem, whatever that means.

What I find especially difficult is comparing myself to other people who maybe have it easier than me.

For example, last night I went on a date, and all I could really think about is that it wasn't going to work out with this person in particular. I still had a good time, but it always sucks knowing I don't have the resources to be in a loving relationship with someone. I don't know, that's just my personal situation.

But I understand what you're saying. It's hard.