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Thankyou so much, i think you really understand me. You said everything just like i feel, you are better at putting it into words than me. thanks for caring enough to reply, sometimes i think i may as well give up ..... i can't undo the things i've done, so i have to move on .... yes it does hurt to lose friends, especially when i know that a lot of my trouble is aggression and people just can't see when i am hurting, but that is my problem for wnating to please i suppose. i do push people away, i do test them because i don't feel i deserve their friendship and if they like me i think they will go anyway ,,, it's usually what happens to me

Like i said i am not a bad person, well i don't think i am so bad. i value your comments mouse and i hope one day i will be as sensible and wise as you are, hugs and love, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo