A supposed good friend tried to burst my happy bubble yesterday.
She called me in the morning, and I was talking passionately about all the things I am getting involved in.. my workshop, my course, life coaching and possible volunteer work on Meetups.com. She has been feeling blah about her own life for many months now, maybe even the last year, and has been talking about and is researching going on Lexapro because of menopausal symptoms. Well, I was all passionate and happy sounding, so she suddenly blurts out in reply to my excitement that she is SO happy that she doesn't have to be single and that she is SO happy to have a wonderful husband.
This was a direct jab at me.... She knows I just went through a divorce, and am freshly single. She knows that I had a miserable marriage. She knows that ultimately, I would like a life partner. All I could say in reply was that I am happy being single, even if it means for the rest of my life.
I am hurt & blown away that my supposed good friend would try to hurt me in this way. It was like a knife stab directly in my heart.... And it was an obvious jab at me because it directly followed from my telling her all the great things happening in my life.
I felt she was trying to overcompensate for the void that is missing in her own life by thinking, well at least I have a good marriage and I don't have to be single.
I am not going to talk to this friend again for a very long time, I decided. I don't need or want that kind of jealousy or person in my life. It was hurtful, and I believe on some level, deliberate. What a jerk!
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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