Welcome strugglin!
Do you have a psychiatrist or therapist?
Are you taking meds? If not they could benefit you with the
highs and lows of being bipolar.
I am bipolar 1.
and have taken meds since in my early 20's. I am 60 now.
My meds stopped working and I was hospitalized
2 1/2 years ago to try different meds in a safe
environment after much trial and error I ended

up on the meds in my signature. I wish for you

blessings and good luck in this journey toward better mental health.
bizi