I'm not quite sure I want to create anything as I feel it is mostly out of my hands.

I hope for a place where I belong, experience some appreciation, be at ease but creating this? I know I depend on chance meetings ... I don't have that many; at least not with women who are candidates a relationship (most people in tango come as a couple). Apart from that, even keeping in touch with a friend involves some anxiety because even if they explicitly state they don't have time but we will meet another time, it feels as if I am not being sufficiently interesting (hence my original question) so it is hard to maintain a social circle too. Somehow, I hope that somebody being there for me, just because of me and not because I try so hard could help me find some easy of mind. I know a relationship will not be the solution to my underlying problems and that I will have to keep working on them but it might take of the sharpest edge that cuts me most often.