Thanks for asking the question, Soupe!

Looking back I have been depressed since I was a kid when my father started to physically abuse me.

In my teens I experienced highs and lows but didn't recognize them as such at that time (this was in the 1980s).

I had my first full blown panic attack in my mid 30s and things went downhill from there. I kept experiencing lower and lower lows with rare periods of being up.

I was diagnosed in my 40s after I went full blown manic after taking an antidepressant.

I continued to rapid cycle but the dominant mood was depressed but I did flip into hypomania for several days, sometimes several hours, at a time.

For the past 7 years I have been severely depressed. I'm currently in an IOP program getting treatment for it.

So it has changed but the dominant mood has been depressed.